I'm finally leaving this place. Leaving this country's obtuse and placid crowd, taking with me nothing but the remembrance of a few joyful times. Leaving behind a life of undisturbed peace and slow but painful death. Not willing to leave the souls that have come to adore me, yet at the same time I aim to dodge the possibility of leading a unprotected life, and by doing that it may seem that at times I run straight into dangerous and unstable situations. I don't worry, I don't fear for the future and this is not entirely a product of extreme trust in a ultimate being, but rather a disinterest in the world around me. A near complete lack of motivation to decide and plan my future for myself. But like a child I have the tendency to flow along with my family, even when I feel like a duped sheep, a mindless zombie. I actually enjoy that feeling its like floating on your back in a slow but steady river, not caring where it takes you. I might go to a better place, I care not. In a way I am like the river, flowing in whispers effortlessly following the way of least resistance. In time I will come to a place where I can find peace of mind, In time..
-Jm
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...And then sometime during the course of your existence you will come to the startling realization that the path of least resistance is fucking boring, and thus you will awaken from your duped sheep-like slumber and ignorance, setting out to fight and resist against whatever pisses the fuck out of you. And thus, your wisdom will be increased, and with it, your power...
..or maybe you'll find that yielding to where the Lord leads you is the only way..the best way.
In your temporary increased wisdom and power you'll gain nothing..and will probably end up losing everything in the end.
It's not ignorance trusting the Lord for better things yet to come, things you can't see, but things that will come when you're in His will.
..there's an awesome feeling you get from depending solely on Him.
everything else in life will fail you at some point.. only He will never.
if you can believe that.. you have everything.
i love u jm.
and i have faith in u..
is it just me or did that post sound like a suicide note? *giggle* :p
mindless to the end
he will travel with uncertainty
freedom yes, is his granted
though edgy feelings still compass
why the hell? you're going, you're going, and you're gone!! :D
naw, good luck finding your place.
(is it also just me or is "warriors: in the final fray" waaay too much like lord of the rings? too little of the main characters die, and the only main person that DOES die is a bad turned good guy. sigh.. such originality continues to spew forth...)
Whatever you say, Spanish person. Go back to your GNs.
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